Hate My Guts

In bed without you I'm wide awake Try to just forget I found you And then how I pushed you away Oh my God, was I insane? You had everything that I ever wanted But now I'm checking off the boxes in our old apartment While I'm packing my things I just got to pour a drink to help me 'Cause love kind of sucks Pretty messed up Guess I didn't know that it would hurt this much Really never thought you'd ever hate my guts after all Old ups come down, crashing in the ground Maybe that's what happens when I run my mouth Take a look around and you're not here And I just can't believe you're gone But the beat goes on and on Riddled with anxiety looking over my shoulder We were out of luck, out of four leaf clovers Looking for the answers, tryna find some closure (Aye) But I ain't getting any closer People say to never walk around but we do We never talk about it like the problem is see thru I wonder if I'm better off if I didn't mean you, no I don't wanna need you, girl I know that this is all my fault But who would have thought I'd miss you this long Singing this song but you never call Love kind of sucks Pretty messed up Guess I didn't know that it would hurt this much Really never thought you'd ever hate my guts after all Old ups come down, crashing in the ground Maybe that's what happens when I run my mouth Take a look around and you're not here And I just can't believe you're gone But the beat goes on and on Love kind of sucks Pretty messed up Guess I didn't know that it would hurt this much Really never thought you'd ever hate my guts after all