Pain

There's times in my life where I just I just wanna run away, I just I just wish the pain would stop I don't wanna cry no more I wish the pain would go away Start a day, bad hands make it hard to deal Sometimes I wanna pull it, end it all with a bullet Hard to live life to the fullest with all this bullsh*t Mad as f**k, a nigga had enough From jump street, saw my father murder massacre slain One shot took half of his brain, I recapture the pain Twenty-three years, three when it happened Twenty-six now, still I can't stop the tears Then my mood switch, thinkin' about this sheisty b*tch Kinda funny 'cause they fake it when they callin' you 'honey' On your dick when they think a nigga, might be rich That's when I sh*t, 'cause I know you f**k with me for my money Learned the hard way, ain't no correctin' the grief Baby moms starts sexin', my so-called beef Don't give a f**k if they Marked me 'For death like Steven' Or relievin' your breathin', long as I'm, Even 'fore I'm leavin' pain I wish this pain, would go away (We're talkin' about the kind of pain that) I wish this pain would go away (Just gets all up in your heart and in your soul) I wish this pain would go away (The kind of pain that makes you feel like you can't go on no more) I wish this pain would go away (The kind of pain that I wouldn't wish on anyone) I can't relate to them cats who hold gats at the gate Is it my fate, am I that nigga, that they love to hate? Solely, slowly, cause I rock a Roley they want my brain gone 'Cause of a f**kin chain on? Migraine's on, now the pain's warm, I stagger And I'm hopin' I don't know the cat with the dagger Penetratin' my heart, rushed thoughts etched in grief To the City College deceased may you rest in peace To the families, I never meant to cause no pain I know the truth, but if you want, then I shoulder the blame Overcome at times by uncontrollable flames and multiple pains Now it seems like I'm goin' insane For the love of you and hip-hop, I expand the news But before my sh*t drops, I stand accused Don't you think I wish we all was rich? One for all, it's pain to see your people When they all can't ball the pain I wish this pain would go away I wish this pain would go away I don't wanna give no more pain I wish this pain would go away I don't wanna receive no more pain I wish this pain would go away God, please take the pain away I can still hear the shots that left my man Big layin' On my knees cryin' and prayin', then I said "God why? Got to know how hard we try Don't let him die, please don't let my nigga be dead" But it was too late, California sealed his fate Gone now, hard to move on now, f**k making songs now Wish I could die, I could fly If they don't give a f**k, f**k it why should I? That's when Big spoke, pulled up in a glistening 3 With platinum wings and said, "Puff listen to me" He puts his hands on my head and said "I live through you Make hits continuous, this is what we do I know it might be strenuous and times is hard Just keep the faith 'cause now we rhyme with God Plus you owe it to yourself and don't forget the kids" That's when I opened up my eyes and new Bad Boy lives I wish this pain would go away I wish this pain would go away One day the pain is gonna stop I wish this pain would go away One day there's gonna be no more pain I wish this pain would go away I'm tellin' you man Now don't let these motherf**kers f**k your sh*t up God I don't give a f**k who it is Don't let 'em f**k yo' paper man, please Big Focus your mind man, do your albums, make them hot joints Man f**k these niggaz man, f**k these niggaz man And I'ma tell the same thing to you When you get your sh*t done, watch your money And hopefully, I pray for you, you be the sh*t And soon motherf**kers start screamin' your name out Like they screamin' all these other, so-called hot niggaz Never take your eyes off that sh*t yo Try to get everything you can out of these motherf**kers yo Ain't no guarantee they gonna love you next year I wish this pain would go away I wish this pain would go away One day the pain is gonna stop I wish this pain would go away One day there's gonna be no more pain I wish this pain would go away One day the pain is gonna stop I wish this pain would go away One day there's gonna be no more pain